A Goal…an Accomplishment..and a Rut

Remember me?  It’s been a long time since I last posted anything to my blog…3 months and 3 days to be exact.  You may not have missed me but I definitely missed you 🙂

The last time I wrote I had just completed my summer fitness challenge for myself.  I had been to the gym Mon thru Fri every week for 3 months.  All of June, July and August.  I accomplished my fitness goals and was feeling pretty proud of myself.  I was also feeling something else….total EXHAUSTION!  I think I can officially say that I burned myself out.  Oh, I didn’t do anything horrible like go into adrenal failure or anything like that.  I just physically, mentally and emotionally burned myself out of fitness for a while.

I spent much of September and October trying to get back into the routine.  I lifted a little.  I did a little cardio.  Mostly though I just took time off.  It was at least 10 days into September before I even attempted to enter the gym.  Part of that was because school started and other obligations got in the way.  But, part of it was also the total lack of desire to go.

My rut has continued on through the fall.  The last time I know for sure I lifted weights was October 11th.  I still don’t have any desire to lift and the lack of doing it is starting to show.  I haven’t gained any weight but my body composition is changing.  I am swapping out muscle for fat.

In spite of all this, what I am finding is that I am normal.  I’m finding that many people go through exactly what I am going through…even people who are in better shape and have been at this much longer than me.  The drive and motivation ebbs and flows.  It gives me hope that this cycle will come to an end soon.

I haven’t given up on fitness completely.  My diet isn’t perfect but it is still better than average.  I’m also slowly rediscovering a desire to run.  You may recall that near the end of my summer fitness challenge I began to loathe all things cardio.  I still don’t want to get in there and pound out a bunch of high-intensity intervals but I am interested in building endurance and “learning” to run distances.

A friend of mine who runs shared a beginning runner program that she used from Runner’s World Magazine and I used it for about 4 weeks.  I did pretty well with it.  I have gotten to the level where I can do several intervals of 3 minutes running and 1 minute walking without feeling like I’m going to die.  I call that progress! 🙂  Then I discovered a new blog called My Fascinating Life http://carolinecalcote.com/ This amazing woman lost over 100 lbs using the Nutrisystem diet.  Then she gave herself the challenge of learning to run a 5K.  She used a program from Cool Running called Couch to 5K.  It is now called Ease Into 5K.  I decided to give it a try and added some music to my routine as well.  What a difference that has made.  I don’t know why I ever stopped using my ipod to do cardio with.  It is so much easier to just get lost in the music and not think about how much longer I have to run.

My running workouts last about 30 minutes, 3 times per week.  I get in, I run, I get out.  Sometimes the weights whisper to me when I’m in the walking part of my intervals.  Hopefully some day soon I’ll head over there and pay them a visit.  In the meantime, I am content to learn to run and who knows…maybe next summer’s challenge will be to actually run a 5K.


Posted on December 5, 2012, in The Process and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. tedleesadler@yahoo.com

    All summer… Up at 430 and to the gym everyday, then on to work and still maintain a balance, built great strength in you – great pride for you in me.

    This fall… Wincing for you while you struggle – I root for you…
    mostly on the inside, not to pressure.

    Your struggle did not diminish my pride for you… on the contrary.

    Now… Watching you start a new routine with elements you do not like –
    but starting nonetheless… new pride is growing upon the old.

    Love and Pride mix well, in my heart, for you.

  2. Amy. My best advice would be to not burn yourself out! We are not 20 and six days a week of hard pounding is crazy and ends up exhausting us. Of course six days of mixing it up and even slowing down is ok. If you find yourself continuing with the “ruts” I would re-evaluate the amount of days you work out. I would think that four days or even three good workouts a week is much more consistent for you than cutting yourself off from exercise for months at a time. Heck, even two days a week when you are struggling for energy, etc. but just keep it going.
    Good luck on with the running. I ran two weeks ago for the first time in a year. I went 2 miles without stopping. I hated it. I hate running but I try it every now and again.
    I am doing Hiphop abs lately and love it. Mixing it with pilates and some running.

    • Thanks for the advice, Karen. I never meant to go months without exercising and really I haven’t. I’ve been going a day here and a day there but nothing that could be considered regular or routine until I started with the running. However, even that is sporadic. But I’m fine with sporadic for right now, especially with the busy Christmas season upon us.

      I am excited for the day when I can run 2 miles without stopping. That’s almost a 5K 🙂 Pretty good for not having run for a year.

  3. Well I have missed you. I am glad you’re coming back. I am SUPER proud of your goal about running!!! Take it slow though, don’t get burned out. Running can be a lifetime thing. I started when I was 24 and now it’s been 20yrs. I never would’ve thought I’d be running 20yrs!!! And, yeah, the goal needs to be a 5k. Maybe we can plan something – you, me and MHH.

    Anything I can help you with – I’m there. Just email or call or text me. I want to be the encouragement you’ve been for me. I love that I found you and that we reconnected. It’s been one fun year getting to know you all over again!

    PS I think I’ll start a blog in January too…since that may be my “last” big training cycle. And, I’m gonna blog about life, fitness, daily stuff. FUN!!

    xxoo Jill

    • I love you, Jill. Your friendship has been one of life’s fun surprises 🙂 I am SO EXCITED for your race on Saturday. I just know you are going to do great!

      I definitely think you should do a blog. I think I’m going to use this one for more than just fitness stuff, too. It was fun “dusting it off” yesterday and posting an update. I had to wait till I got to a point where I wasn’t ashamed of how far I’ve let myself slip into this rut.

      I’m thinking a 5K is in order, too, but I have a long way to go. I’m taking your advice and I’m going slow. If it’s going to happen it will…eventually 🙂

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